Be Right Back

I'm going to the Holy land today!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I'm so excited! To see my family, the kotel, my friends, teachers, rabbis, rebbetzins and well just about everything there!!

If you want anything, just shoot me an email....I'll update you all when I come back to SHMUTZ LA'ARETZ!

Tztchem L'shalom!

Doing good

I often wonder about myself and the way I act. Not to pat myself on the back or anything but I tend to do a lot of good things for many people. I'm the person you call up when you're in a bind and need some help, you need some cheering up, a last minute babysitter, or some help cooking Thursday night. I really enjoy doing all these things. I really do but I wonder if I do it really l'shem shamayim or do I do it so that someone else will think I'm a good person.

I tend to go back and forth on this issue but I will remember what a rabbi once told me...I'm willing to die being good. Am I really? Truthfully, I've never been faced with death when trying to do something good but at the same time, there are times when I neglect myself to do good for others. For example: I might be SO tired after a long day of hard work and someone will ask me for some help with something. I will 99% of the time say yes....which is fine and great but did I do it because I wanted to really help that person out and do them a favor or did I do it because I now know that that person will think I'm G-d's gift to mankind.

You might think I'm completely crazy...but I really want to be sure I have the right motivations...at least 90% of the time. I want to be sure I am a really nice person and not completely faking people out.

ok ok ok....I'm nuts....

Sheitel Talk

I went to a wedding the other night and sat at a table with some married friends (of course) We were all having a pleasant conversation until we got into the....You guessed it! Sheitel talk!!!

The conversation went something like: “I think you should perm it next time", "I just love the color!", "I paid only $35 for my sheitel to get washed and set" and on and on and on....

Really, the conversation is G-d awful. I never talk about my hair that much and it's still attached to my head but more importantly...You see that someone is single, and you know what, I don't wear a sheitel just yet! And there is more to life than talking about the latest fashion of the hair piece that is meant to be a sign of marriage.

I guess it's just one more accessory to talk about but I felt that my friends were no being sensitive to the fact that I wasn't married. I was offended enough to open my mouth and say "Hey guys, could we talk about something else?"

They stopped the conversation, thankfully. But will they realize for the next time that what they did was hurtful. I can only hope.

As for me, I hope I'd have that much guts when coming face to face with Loshon Horah...