Happy Birthday!

Birthdays are a time of celebration; a time of joy where the ending of last year signifies a hopeful and promising beginning for next year, where dreams that somehow were forgotten will again have the chance to be realized and actualized. Yet, there is the point in one’s life when each successive year becomes a year wrought with uncertainty; where what was once a life filled with dreams and goals has now been replaced with anguish and insecurity; When the dreams of yesteryear, those that have yet to come true, continue to be the dreams of tomorrow and forever. So when that time of year swings around and you have now become one year older, there is the familiar ache in one’s heart and the same questions asked time and again, will this year be the year?

Every girl wishes to find that special someone in her life. To finally meet him, be swept off her feet and live finally, happily ever after just the way it always works out in books and movies. Prince Charming of course is the man you always dreamed of; tall, handsome, smart, ambitious, successful, kind, sweet, romantic….and the list is endless. In short – he’s perfect. But as each year ends and the new one begins, you have to wonder – will it ever happen?

So many of you are undoubtedly thinking – ‘Gosh, would you stop being so desperate? It’ll happen when it’s time for it to happen. Would you stop worrying so much already?’ I just can’t help but wonder about him. I think of ‘him’ day in and day out, week in and week out and wonder when will we finally be be granted permission to meet one another? When will we be able to then spend the rest of our lives together?

True I may be in for some surprises and I may not exactly be swept off my feet but I can hope for true love, can’t I? A love and respect for one another, a love for our eventual family together and a love of fulfilling the words of Hashem together on a daily basis. One can only hope for at least that….I think….I hope. So, maybe not all hope is lost…

Until that point, Happy Birthday to me at the ripe old age of 27 and may this year be the year!